bad habbits

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while staying abroad i don't switch off my laptop at all at night. got some reasons for it -

• i always set smth to download during the night
  
• i need to turn on the music in the first few seconds after wakin' up
• and i need to check hot-news and all my bookmarks in the morning in 2 minutes.
  

and today i screwed up with the last one.

"Two female suicide bombers kill at least 37 commuters in bomb attacks on Moscow tube trains"

blah-blah-blah. and here we go, briefly checking bbc and cnn pages, grabbing the phone and trying to recollect all the folks i got in M-city...calls-calls-calls-calls even more calls.
its better not to read blogs, coz ppl r going mental writing about not using subway now at all.
ppl, i may be rude and mean and egoistic in a way, but stop lying to yourself - we r not livin' in a peaceful time! sorry but not. and we can't run away from all these crap. its here but nobody knows where, when and how it will happen to you or any of your mates/relatives/lovers..

'Yes, man is mortal, but that would be only half the trouble.
The worst of it is that he's sometimes unexpectedly mortal
- there's the trick! And generally he's unable to say what
he's going to do this same evening.' (c)M.Bulgakov "Master&Margarita"

i constantly repeat it to myself (as its my favorite novel ever). we can't make anything with it. we should live. and damn, carpe diem, guys!! Capre diem!
37 already died today in M-city due to those two bombs.. and i doubt that they felt happy and thankful on the last second of their lives. pretty sure their minds were full of daily routine and boring plans of monday morning for the next 5 hard-working days.

since the morning im only listenin' to 65daysofstatic. those guys r only possible to get my feelings back together and dont let me step back again.

pray for those victims. thats all we can.